January 22nd, 2004

dad & fish & i

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wanna hear something totally fucked up?

i was im'd by the old boyfriend tonight.

out of the blue. from another non - blocked screen name.

he aplologized and stuff. then he called me.

we spoke for for abour 2 hours.

it was nice to speak to him, clear the air.

i don't know, though, if it is because he heard i was dealing with the chemo, or my accident yesterday, or because he just felt a bit of remorse.

it is all just so sad. the hurt feelings all could have been avoided, or at least most of them, if he had just said he needed time. or if he had allowed me the one phone call. even murderers get a phone call.
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