September 18th, 2005

dad & fish & i

(no subject)

i'm having difficulty with trusting people and events, and i am having trouble trusting my own feelings. i've been feeling overly anxious and depressed and these are not good feelings for me, thus making generally easy decisions extremely difficult. i've been waffling. sitting uncomfortably on a broken picket fence. looking for an out.

i also have been feeling angry and resentful towards most of my family, specifically my brother.

my nephew just turned 16. god forbid he can get his license now.

i feel kinda like shutting down and closing for business.